New beginnings, old sadness
I moved into the rental yesterday. A little happy, a little sad. Missing D a lot these last few days. I have stuff everywhere, my back hurts; had he been there, D would have lectured me about doing it all alone. Well, not completely alone, I had a friend helping me lift the heavy stuff… But I did slide furniture around the house on my own.
I’m also sick, and feeling sooky. So… all in all, I just miss his company. I miss that he would have told me to take time off work so he could look after me. I miss him laughing at me because I look so bedraggled and totally not with it when I’m sick. I miss that he still would have though I was beautiful.
It’s been 4 months today… And nearly 5 since I last saw his smiling face… I guess I’m just having a shit and emotional few days. I’m sure they’ll hit me a lot over the next forever.